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Nights Like This. . .

Wed, 04 Nov 2009 16:55:17 GMT

it's when I feel the loneliest.

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I Don't Know . . .

Thu, 29 Oct 2009 17:59:09 GMT

Maybe it was wrong to start anything in the first place.
Nothing seems right anymore.
Maybe, maybe this will not work.

Should I give up now?

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OMG

Tue, 06 Oct 2009 15:05:45 GMT

MY BLOG IS DEAD!!!

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What Do You Think of This?

Wed, 26 Aug 2009 17:40:51 GMT

Rihanna Attack -- The Official Blow-by-Blow

Posted Aug 25th 2009 7:32PM by TMZ Staff

The court has released the officer's report from the night Chris Brown beat up Rihanna -- describing the entire incident in graphic detail.

According to the report, cops responded to a "screaming woman" -- and when they arrived, they noticed a "very upset and crying" Rihanna seated in the driver's seat of a parked vehicle.

Rihanna told the officer she got into an argument with Chris Brown over something that had occurred at an event they were at earlier in the evening.

"The victim said she became enraged and slammed both of her fists against the dashboard on the passenger side of the car they were in. She reported that the defendant then pulled the vehicle over and reached over her with his right hand. He opened the car door and tried to force the victim out."

According to the report, Brown was unable to shove Rihanna out of the car because she was wearing a seatbelt.

The report continues, "When he could not force her to exit, he took his right hand and shoved her head against the passenger window of the car. "

"The victim then faced the defendant and he punched her in the left eye with his right hand. He then continued driving."

"As he drove, he continued to punch the victim in the face with his right hand while steering the vehicle with his left hand."

Rihanna told cops the "assault caused her mouth to fill with blood and blood to splatter over her clothing and the inside of the car."

Rihanna told cops after Brown "stopped his first assault .. she looked in the mirror and saw her eye beginning to swell.

[Brown] looked at [Rihanna] and said 'I'm going to beat the shit out of you when we get home! You wait and see!'"

Rihanna told police she tried to call her personal assistant, but she didn't pick up -- but Rihanna says she "pretended to talk, saying, 'I'm on my way home. Make sure the cops are there when I get there.'"

Rihanna says she pulled the act "because she did not want to get beat anymore."

But after Rihanna's fake phone conversation, she claims Brown "looked at [Rihanna] and said, "You just did the stupidest thing ever! Now I'm really going to kill you!"

Rihanna told cops that Brown unleashed a second wave of punches, "during which time [Rihanna] interlocked her fingers behind her head and brought her elbows forward to protect her face." He continued to punch her on her left arm, which caused a contusion on her left tricep.

At that point Rihanna tried texting her assistant. Brown threw the phone out of the car, stopped the vehicle and Rihanna then tried opening her door to get out, but Brown sped off and the door shut with Rihanna inside.

Brown placed Rihanna in a headlock while he drove, then bit her on her left ear. The car eventually stopped and Rihanna took the keys out of the ignition, and Brown began to punch her again in the face and arms. He placed her in a headlock and started applying pressure to her carotid artery. She couldn't breathe and began to lose consciousness. She tried freeing herself, and Brown bit her left ring and middle fingers and then released her.

Rihanna took off her shoe and tried breaking the passenger window, and he continued to punch her.

Eventually, Brown got out of the car. Rihanna opened the door and continued screaming. Brown began punching her again. He got back in the car and screamed "Where are my f***ing keys?" He got out, looked for the keys in vain, and when he could not find them removed several CDs and walked away.

Officers were called and observed numerous contusions and abrasions to Rihanna's face and forehead, as well as bruising on her left arm. There were other injuries as well.

Investigators determined Brown was wearing a large ring on his right hand which caused several of Rihanna's injuries.

Details taken from www.tmz.com

It is so sad that a guy can abuse a girl to such degree.
And it's surprising that some ppl actually think that Rihanna brought all of this to herself as she slapped Chris Brown first.
To me, a guy should nv ever touch a girl NO MATTER WHAT.
And vice versa, simply cause we are HUMAN and not ANIMALS.

What are your thoughts on 'spousal physical abuse'?
Or any kind of physical abuse?

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Jus Pics.

Tue, 25 Aug 2009 17:31:12 GMT

And so we danced and dranked the night away for Nette's belated bday celebration at Envie.

Cause I'm too sick and lazy to write anything, more update next time.
Peace out. -LadyC-

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Sad Post.

Wed, 08 Jul 2009 02:07:00 GMT

I stayed up last night to watch the live telecast of MJ's public memorial.
Even though I have to wake up at 7.30 the next morning to go for work.
Yes, I am working for my Daddycool for a bit now during my break.
And my sweet Pipu voluntarily said he'll join me for work.

So anyhoos, it was a great and touching memorial.
I basically cried throughout the entire show.
It's hard to believe that I actually feel so much for someone that I don't even know.
But I guess, that is why he is one of the biggest star in the world.

And I thought Jennifer Hudson's 'Will You Be There', Usher's 'Gone Too Soon', young Shaheen Jafargholi's 'Who's Lovin' You', and especially Jermaine Jackson's 'Smile' were the best performances.
As for speeches, Rev. Al Sharpton, Queen Latifah, Magic Johnson, and his brother's speeches were the light-hearted and most meaningful.

Of course the most heartbreaking part of the entire show is when his daugther, Paris Jackson gave a tearful shoutout to her dad.
I swear I cried non-stop and my heart pains when his gold-casket was taken away from the Staples Centre.
The whole memorial reminded me of my cousin's passing, which makes matters worst.

And I absolutely hate those ppl who got the tickets to his memorial who later put it up on Ebay for sale.
Also the stupid-ass Rep. Peter King who say that Michael Jackson is a paedophile and he did violate those small kids.
These people are jus heartless and soul-less, sick people who does not have compassion in their heart at all.

Seriously, who cares if MJ's kids are his biological kids or not.
He was there to care for them and love them like any other normal father the day that they are born.
So we should not care and judge him furthermore, jus because they might not be his biological children.

Now it doesn't matter what ppl have or will say about him.
Because even after passing away, he is donating 20% of his property/money to various children charities.
He is one artist that I honestly think that he really do care and is jus not doing it to gain publicity.
Simply cause he writes songs which talks bout healing the world and he has been giving to charity and the less fortunate ever since he exploded and became the star that he is now.

Sorry for all the ramblings about MJ.
I really do love him.
I grew up wit him and I'm proud to hv see him in action in his concert.
I will really, really miss him.

This picture is so heartbreaking, they look so lost and Blanket obviously misses his daddy a lot.. And yes, that is Blanket carrying a MJ doll.

Forever in my heart, Forever.

On another note, I am not chosen as one of the Finalist for the Estee Lauder Model Search.
Sad, but true.
But I wanna thank everyone who voted for me and all.
Really really appreciate your support.

Well, shall end this sad day wit a happy and funny video.
It's like super duper cute.
Made my day.
And I hope it will make your day too.

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Vote for Me. =)

Tue, 30 Jun 2009 16:14:02 GMT

Hello my fellow aliensssssss.
I am happy to share wit you guys that I am chosen as of the semi-finalist for the Estee Lauder Model Search 09'.
Like super shocked and happy when they told me that I'm chosen out of the hundreds or even thousands who participated.

Really wasn't my intention to join the competition.
Needed to buy my skincare so I thought I might as well purchase the voucher worth RM280 where they take a photo for you which will be sent automatically as a entry form at the cost of RM50 and the rest of the amount I will redeem my skincare products.

Invited my bestie, Amy to go along wit me cause the total of the products that I will buy will def be more than 230 bucks.
So the bestie and I both got to get a makeover and take beautiful pictures and then went to have awesome Jap food for lunch.
Awesome girl's day out.

So anyway, back to my main point.
Please my dear readers, if you guys could kindly jus visit this site www.esteelaudermodelsearch.com.my, register and VOTE FOR ME.

To register it's really simple and easy as 1,2,3.
Jus need to enter your name, IC/Passport Number and Email Add.
And then you are on your way to VOTE!
Also, you can not only vote for me, but for other girls that you think deserves your vote.

Although I am a bit sad that they choose a picture where I don't look best .
Cause they didn't use the picture which I submitted in as my entry photo and it wasn't photoshoped like all the other contestants picture.
But oh well, guess it's not such a big deal afterall.
Don't really aim on winning the contest but would jus like to be one of the finalist and have the experience as well as the RM1000 worth of Estee Lauder product which is given to all Finalist.

So so so so, I hope that you guys can vote for me.
As many as possible.
Cause it's 50% based on votes and 50% based on judges votes.
So fingers crosseddddddd that I will be chosen as one of the Finalist.

Voting starts on the 3rd till the 7th of July.
So hurry up register and get ready to VOTE.
Thank you guys who actually vote for me.
Appreciate it really really really much.

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You Are Not Alone MJ.

Fri, 26 Jun 2009 09:29:09 GMT

The King of Pop has passed away.
Such a strange extraordinary feeling that I'm feeling right now.
It's as if a family member of mine has passed away.
It feels as if I've know him personally.

Not everyone in the entertainment world can induce this sort of feeling on people around the world when he/she passed away.
Only a few artist can do it including the King of Rock, Elvis Presley.
And of course now, Michael Jackson.

To me, it doesn't matter whether he really did mollest the children as accused.
All that we should do now is remember what a great artist he was and what great thing he as a person has done as well as how his music has truly changed the world.

I've always have goosebumps when I listen to his songs.
Especially 'You Are Not Alone'.
Everytime when I listen to it, it feels as if he is singing it to me personally.
This is one of the many great things that his music can do.

It touches you.
Touches your heart.
Makes you sing.
And of course, it makes you dance.

No one can ever dance like him.
No one can sing like him.
No one can perform like him.
No one can ever replace him.

We always perceive artist as how we want to and how the media portray them.
But when in fact, they are afterall, human, jus like you and me.
They go through ups and downs jus like us.
And jus like us, they'd like to hv privacy and we will never really noe wat goes on in their life.

Being a famous star even when he was 6, he does not have a normal, fun childhood like you and I.
A lot of child star do not grow up to be perfectly normal and content with themselves.
Even we who go through somewhat 'normal' childhood struggle to be content and confident wit ourselves.

We don't know.
So we shouldn't judge.
We should jus love and remember him as he is.
The One and Only, King of Pop, Michael Jackson.

Have you seen my Childhood?
I'm searching for the world that I come from
'Cause I've been looking around
In the lost and found of my heart...
No one understands me
They view it as such strange eccentricities...
'Cause I keep kidding around
Like a child, but pardon me...

People say I'm not okay
'Cause I love such elementary things...
It's been my fate to compensate,
for the Childhood
I've never known...

Have you seen my Childhood?
I'm searching for that wonder in my youth
Like pirates in adventurous dreams,
Of conquest and kings on the throne...

Before you judge me, try hard to love me,
Look within your heart then ask,
Have you seen my Childhood?

People say I'm strange that way
'Cause I love such elementary things,
It's been my fate to compensate,
for the Childhood I've never known...

Have you seen my Childhood?
I'm searching for that wonder in my youth
Like fantastical stories to share
The dreams I would dare, watch me fly...

Before you judge me, try hard to love me.
The painful youth I've had

Have you seen my Childhood...

-Childhood by M.Jackson-

He is loved by millions but he never loved himself and never felt loved from his family, especially his father.
Physical and emotional abuse since he was a kid affected him badly.
It's so sad that he never see himself the way others perceived him.

He brought joy to the world and entertained us like no other artist have.
Many found strength and related themselves in his songs.
But all these success and achievements made him even a lonelier person.
He had a great, wonderful career at the cost of happiness and a normal life.

'You are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart '

You will always live on in millions' heart. You are not alone, MJ.
We will always be wit you. May you now finally find Peace in God's arms.

. Much Love All .

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Tue, 23 Jun 2009 18:35:50 GMT

!!!!!!!THIS IS THE BOMB!!!!!!!

.GO WATCH IT IN THE CINEMA.

.WORTH IT. .LOVE IT.

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Love This.

Tue, 16 Jun 2009 15:58:59 GMT

You're everything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought you could have been
But still, you live inside of me, so tell me how is that?
You're the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I love to not forgive
And though you break my heart, you're the only one
And though there are times when I hate you
'Cause I can't erase
The times that you hurt me and put tears on my face
And even now, while I hate you, it pains me to say
I know I'll be there at the end of the day

I don't wanna be without you, babe
I don't want a broken heart
Don't wanna take a breath without you, babe
I don't wanna play that part
I know that I love you, but let me just say
I don't wanna love you in no kind of way, no no
I don't want a broken heart
I don't wanna play the broken-hearted girl
No, no, no broken-hearted girl

There's something that I feel I need to say
But up til' now I've always been afraid
That you would never come around
And still I wanna put this out

You say you've got the most respect for me
But, sometimes I feel you're not deserving of me
And still, you're in my heart
But you're the only one
And yes, there are times when I hate you, but I don't complain
'Cause I've been afraid that you would walk away
Oh, but now I don't hate you
I'm happy to say
That I will be there at the end of the day

I don't wanna be without you, babe
I don't want a broken heart
Don't wanna take a breath without you, babe
I don't wanna play that part
I know that I love you, but let me just say
I don't wanna love you in no kind of way, no no
I don't want a broken heart
I don't wanna play the broken-hearted girl
No, no, no broken-hearted girl

Now I'm at a place I thought I'd never be, ooh
I'm living in a world that's all about you and me, yeah
Ain't gotta be afraid, my broken heart is free to spread my wings and fly away, away with you....

I don't wanna be without my baby
I don't want a broken heart
Don't wanna take a breath without my baby
I don't wanna play that part
I know that I love you, but let me just say
I don't wanna love you in no kind of way, no no
I don't want a broken heart
I don't wanna play the broken-hearted girl
No, no, no broken-hearted girl
Broken-hearted girl
No broken-hearted girl

. Much Love All .